spaced out.

Seeing as there are like millions of galaxy's in space, i mean our little solar system is only in one of the many arm's of the milky way. How could anyone possibly think that we are the only life out there. yeah right, it shouldn't be even considered that there isn't. seriously...i wish people wouldn't be so naive. god is love. love is the energy of life. so there it is.

i must be in a dream

everyday i am here. in these mtns of ga. i do feel the comfort of this small town, i uv the fresh mtn air and i love having little to NO traffic. HOWEVER.....

i left a career...oh was it my life. i was so in luv with my life. now i am married w/2. whoa. i find myself in a constant fantasy world in my head. and oh it goes everywhere. i know i can't just be here forever. what is right?????????????????????? well i have to go..right now.

Single Eye

"The Light of the body is the eye; if therefore thine eye be "single", thy WHOLE body shall be full of light."
"Love your enemies, BLESS them that curse you, do GOOD to them that hate you, and PRAY for them that despitefully use you, and persecute you."
Bible book of Mathew.
eye being single...it's like your personality and your spirit/soul as one working as one...meaning you can act everyday unconsiously being a "righteous" person. Like a total union...i mean if i didn't have to fight w/ my personality all the time like a constant battle of right and wrong. i am aware of this issue...bigggg time. but i have came a long way and my real self...and the "person" i want to be is getting closer and closer every day...sometimes there may be a lack of motivation to think of this but...i have learned that if i can just say little prayers everytime i remember too..like God please help me do all i need to be doing today..please. Oh and God please help me to remember to pray too...b/c no matter what is in me i am still human and i sin. i sin. but i love the fact that god has freaking hold on me..no matter what my daily activities are good or bad i face myself always..you know that guilty conscious is something and i can't handle it....it's like a built in thing i have had since i can remember. i am so thankful...i get all teary eyed..b/c i think of star and the love that she radiates to me and tells me she loves me every 5 mins and kisses and hugs and this connection that i couldn't possibly EVER LIVE WITHOUT...i mean i must have deserved her...she's like my little guardian angel....she makes me want to do my best b/c that is what she deserves. okay i will stop now i am about to break down and cry...not sad i am just so freaking emotional.....